A Little Rain...

Right now I am sitting at my desk looking at the cloudy skies and the gentle rain falling down. At times, the rain pours from the sky, and then occasionally stops...it makes that pitter patter noise of the roof...the rich, green leaves on the trees contrast the passionate dark blue sky above, although the sky is finally starting to lighten up. We have not had sunshine in the past four days and it is supposed to be like this for the rest of the weekend...

As I was sitting here admiring God's creation and the beauty of the rain, I realized that our lives can be symbolized in the weather. Sometimes, on days like today, it just keeps raining and raining and will not let up. Or it might finally let up and the skies finally might start clearing, but then more dark blue clouds come again. Although it may seem like the sun will never come out again, it does. Eventually. Whether it is after a few hours or a few days. It comes back to warm the earth. But when you think about it, the sun helps nourish the grass and trees, yet so does the rain. Without the rain, everything would die. So I guess what I am trying to say is that without a little downpour, or sometimes a very huge thunderstorm, nothing would grow. Nothing would blossom. Nothing would be as beautiful as it is right now, just like in our very own lives.

At times, things happen that may seem terrible to us...and maybe they really are. We may think that life will never get better or easier or that we will never understand. But eventually, after days or months or even years, if we are patient enough, God will heal us and help us learn and grow from our struggles and tests. In fact, He is taking care of us during the entire storm. We just do not realize it because we can not see through the darkness. When the sun comes out, however, and things get better, we realize that God was there all along and that after every storm, the sun comes back out again.

So no matter what you are facing, whether it is the loss of a loved one, problems with friends, a sick sibling, or a confusing relationship, just know that although it might not be easy, the rain will eventually stop, and God will make the sun shine on you and warm you up again. I promise.

Letting Go

Sometimes you have to let go of something good to get something great.

Sometimes to see the future, we have to turn our backs on the past.

I think letting go of something is one of the hardest things we have to do here on earth. We have to let go of loved ones, dreams, relationships, and what we know because nothing ever stays the same for long. It always seems that just when you start getting used to something, it has to change. You either have to accept that change or let go...

As much as we wish we could hold on, sometimes it is just best to let go and leave with a few beautiful memories. Sometimes it is easier to just let go instead of facing the problem, doing the work, or expressing your heart to someone. Sometimes it is best to let go...but sometimes I think we just convince ourselves that it is the right thing to do because we are too scared to hold on.

I don't know what I am. Sometimes I think I should still hang tightly to this dream I have...but the logical part of me tells me I need to let go and move on because someone better will come along...right? I guess that is my predicament. I have been here for so long now...I want to hang on, but if the other person does not seem to want to, either because of fear and doubt or whatever the reason, why should I remain standing alone? Shouldn't I look for something better? But am I making the biggest mistake by letting go of something I still have not gotten an answer to?

I guess time will tell, but as time goes on, it sometimes seems like I only grow more confused. Maybe...maybe I should just let go in the sense that I don't worry about what ifs and what will or could or should or might happen. Maybe I am supposed to let go and give my worries and fears and hopes and dreams to God. And instead trying to solve everything myself, let God handle it...So that is what I will do. Let go...I am letting it go to God and trusting that He will move me in the right direction and give me patience, clarity, and joy. I encourage you to try it too.